Funny, dark and bitter sweet. Sex, drugs, rock ‘n roll and a typewriter.
This show is a constant battle between what we should be or do and what we are. I am reading this book, called “A Wrinkle in time”. A group of kids is sent to a planet, that surrendered to the great evil. People on this planet do things exactly right, exactly like everyone else, because they don’t have a mind of their own any more, they have one big mind, that thinks for every one.
We used to thinking that stuff that is not in a norm is weird or even evil, but what if the norm is the evil?
Certainly the answer is somewhere in the middle, and there isn’t one and only one right. Otherwise it wouldn’t be fun living, would it?
Californication is just about that. They take stereotypes and look into them: rock star, hippie, writer, housewife, parents, teenagers, students, teachers etc.
It’s beautiful for sound track and shooting. Other than that…
My first reaction was: it’s a bit shallow. Well, mixing vampire fantasy with critical overview on society kinda makes it loose on both ends.
On the other hand this “and?” mark , that I was left after the film, encouraged thinking.
He is the depressed one, the thinker. She is the lover of the simple pleasures. Like plants, animals, dancing.
I like the Eva character, typical unruly teenager. And I agree with her, Adam and Eve are snobs.
“What choice do we have?”
Every year my Tai Ji school holds a 合宿, which means a training camp in Japanese, the Chinese alternative I believe can be 练营. Basically it means, that the whole school gathers at one location and practices from morning to evening for a week.
Up until this year, I came for two may be three days, but since I had the time, I finally went for the whole package.
So 40 hours, 5 days – check.
Few years back I participated at Vipassana 10 day retreat. The after thought was, that it was the most challenging thing I’d ever done. Well now Vipassana has a competitor.
Physically this training week was almost easy and very much fun, but emotionally for me it was tough.
Every time I get excited and forget, that I don’t actually liked big gatherings like this, no more than I like long shopping tours. I get tired quickly. Too much people is not my thing.
A friend said, that it’s strange coming from someone, who spent few years in China. Yeah, true, I guess. On one hand I remember on busy weekend in Beijing subway thinking, what if all those people were Israelis instead. On the other, when I participated in Strawberry rock festival, I didn’t like it either.
Any how, Pride Parade. The city was dressed with rainbow flags for the whole week. It was a usual hot sunny day. Pride Parade is first of all very colorful event. You meet all sorts of people in this live river. People go to extremes. Surrounded with the vibe of acceptance and fun it’s liberating. Every thing goes. I think, that’s the main point of the thing.
When I was a teenager, I used to have a habit of falling in love with a song and putting it on repeat, until I (and everyone around me) couldn’t stand it any more. My roommate and best friend at some point stopped showing me her new discoverings, cause we liked similar things, and chance that her new favorite song will become mine as well was very high. And no song, doesn’t matter how good, can stand the repeat treatment for long.
At some point, quiet long ago, having a self-reflection episode, I was toying with a thought, if I pick so much from others, it goes to music, movies, books, clothes etc., what is actually mine? Well, then I came to conclusion, that stuff , that is not “mine” doesn’t stick, and stuff that is, becomes an other note, an other stroke in my own story, changes smth in me by correlating with my previous “possessions”.
Now I rarely use my old habit and put something on repeat, but there are exceptions, like my latest pic-up & repeat “victim” – “badlands”.
עברו 15 שנה, אבל אני זוכרת. הדף המצ׳וקמק הזה עובר איתי מעיר לעיר מדירה לדירה. ובשעה של בילבול ,אחרי מערכות יחסים שכשלו , התאהבויות שלא פרחו, כיף להוציא אותו שוב לאור ולהגיד תודה .כי אכן היה אחד שראה אותי ככה:
שקט שאפשר לתאר
אמת שאפשר להרגיש
אישה שרק ניתקה מחבל אימה
כן, את אישה אמיתית
כן, את הכי אישה
שקט שאפשר לתאר
את ילדת אלוהים
לא אשכח אותך
It was effortless with him. They walked the sunny streets together, talked about everything and nothing in particular, and laughed. Nelly couldn’t remember herself ever laughing so much. It seemed in no time, and ages passed when they found themselves in a music store.
Max’s taste in music took Nelly by surprise. Stuff he liked, she’d never heard of. And she thought she knew music. But nevertheless she liked a lot of his choices. She showed him her favorites, he also learned few new names. They both found several records to buy.
It was almost sunset when they left the shop. Sun was very low, and the whole atmosphere has changed. It was warm, calm and slow.
” So… What do you want to do next?” Max asked.
” Let’s not go home just yet”
” Ice cream?”
” I got a better idea!” Nelly smiled.” I’ve always passed this caffe, but never entered”.
It was a cosy little coffee shop, packed with book shelves along the walls. They walked in and sited at the corner. As they ordered the small stage at the back of the room came to life. Live jazz music filled the space.
The music was just as the atmosphere outside, warm and calm. It was too loud to speak. So they set and listened letting their thoughts wander free.
“Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?”
This is so like me, to download Harry Potter both in Chinese & English, to practice Chinese and end up swallowing the whole seven of them in English.
Why is it so addicting I wonder?
When I was little, we used to have all sorts of “make a wish” little games. Like when you blow dandelion seeds and watch them fly. People used to wish for different things, I always wished for a magic wand, cause when you have one you can have endless wishes come true.
The idea of magic is very powerful, isn’t it? So of course the idea of wizard’s world co existing along side our own would be catching.
“It is our choices, Harry, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.”
I think I finally got a glimpse of understanding what “Tai Chi Way” might be meaning in everyday life.
I met my first Tai Chi teacher the other day, after not being in touch with her for 4-5 years.
In a short two-minute conversation she got all the news she needed, what I’ve been doing, what my future plans are, gave me an assignment and made me commit to it. And all this without revealing anything about herself.
I felt like this petite elderly woman just pushed me flying across the room, like she had often done, not physically, but mentally this time.
It certainly have not been her first time, but mine to recognize.
Apparently it is an entirely new way of thinking to me. Which reminds of this incredible short animation film. It illustrates just this: martial art fight as a visualization of a regular dialog.